I'm Tired~ (editedx2)

I'm not sleepy tired, but tired of something else: My Homestuck Trolls picture >:I

its not that I hate it, I don't, I worked hard on it, but it seems that that's all people favourite nowadays, and im tired of it. It symbolizes a part of me that I have grown away from; I don't read Homestuck anymore, but that doesn't mean I am still not involved with people who do, if they love it, good for them c: I just have grown weary of countless days where I will have no feedback messages, then I will get 4, become excited, only to realize that they were just favourites for the homestuck pic. This bothers me, because I don't think that people actually take the time to look at the other art (be it very little) and see that I have grown, I think, as an artist and as a person in general. People don't see the hard work and dedication artists put into non-fanart pieces, they just see the fanart. too many times have I seen artists get hate because they are leaving a fandom, and don't draw pictures involving a fandom anymore, it irks me, that people don't realize that some artists have intrests outside fandoms. Im not saying the homestuck fandom is like this, at least not the ones I've encountered, but that's not saying there aren't people like this. I don't draw or paint to become famous, that's not me, but people constantly tell me I have to get my art out because im "good at it" :I I don't like drawing fanart because: 1. im not good at drawing other characters in my style, and 2. its just not for me. I don't want to get recognized too fast, because I kinda like being off radar. I think it makes for a pleasant surprise when people do find me, even if its just through c: because i'll always be known as "Clint's lil sis" when first addressed~

Back to Homestuck. I wanted to try and store the picture somewhere in my gallery, but it doesn't seem to want to :I its not like I WANT to delete it, but if this gets out of control, I will. I've left a comment in the description saying "oh maybe look at my other art or some shit because im not all about homestuck I have decent ideas" or some shit like that, but it seems that people don't even read the descriptions anymore, and that makes me sad. its always the first thing I read, even if I don't necessarily comment (oops :I ) people favouriting my art makes me happy c: like, people actually took time to look at MY art. But then why does it bother me so much when its the Homestuck troll pic, because I DO have two other quick homestuck-y pics up in the folders somewhere~

If I do decide to delete it, then that's what I'll do, because I'm simply tired of excitement, then slight disappointment.

(also I realize that I haven't uploaded anything in a coon's age, I'm sorry :c im in kind of a rut, I have sketches, oodles of them. but I just haven't painted in so long. I hate that about me~ rest assured im not dead, but I really should get some art up, because maybe it will help me out. I just don't have time anymore :c )

EDIT: On this day of the 1st of February, I have decided to delete Homestuck Trolls from my gallery. After checking my messages, two of them were favourites to it, but surprisingly someone had faved On The Train, so that made me happy c: Enough is enough, im tired of this. Sorry, but sadly, not sorry~

EDIT #2: wow was I ever angry D:
in this rant, i forgot to realize that people don't know my characters, they don't know about the stories that i have built with them(mostly because i don't post any lawl) because people will go to what is most familiar to them first. if an artist draws fanart for a while, then draws some original stuff as well, people will be more likely to notice the original art due to a large buildup of activity from people that came to see the fanart. i didn't realize this, and instead, was a bubble-blowing double baby D: drew Raccoons fanart and Hey-Arnold fanart all the time at the beginning, and look now at his little fanbase! this realization hit me like a ton of bricks, and i feel bad that i didn't realize this sooner :c i really am bad at drawing fanart tho B)